Day Six - A Lack of Silence

Yesterday, aside from a lovely start to the day of croissants and presents - it was my birthday - I spent the entire day in the car driving to some governor training and driving home again.

 The day itself has been really good content-wise but that was hampered by...


  • Airless room
  • Strip lighting
  • No natural lighting
  • Lots of input
  • Surrounded by strangers
  • No space.

Today has been nose to tail... a walk, morning prayer (an oasis) and a Said Mass, the rest of the day has been desk based in front of a computer sorting admin, arranging meetings, preparing liturgy, and arranging pastoral catch ups.

 The result?

 My brain is full and I feel a bit emotionally bruised.

I've been reminded that two days of input, with people, on the go all the time, with little space is not good for my wellbeing.





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